You know it’ll hurt you to see it. You know it won’t change anything. But you want to know. You want to who she is.

You quickly skim through the pictures. You see a picture of a birthday girl. It’s labeled “me + my sister in law”. You keep flipping through. You come to another girl. He’s standing beside her, his arm wrapped around her. They’re both looking into the camera, smiling really big. They look happy. You look down at the caption. It’s labeled “me + her name”. You see another picture of him and her. And another. And then you know. That’s her. She’s really quite pretty. And deep down you knew from before that that’s what she’d be like.

So now what do you do?

Are you supposed to be happy for them? Or hate them for being happy? Hate that it’s not you? Are you supposed to cry scream kick or yell?

Or do you hope that one day seeing this picture again won’t hurt you?